Written, Shot & Edited by Gaya
Music by Gaya & Reiner Erlings
Shot on the Sony RX100 IV
Addtional footage by Reiner Erlings & Naomi Rader
Special thanks to Reiner Erlings, Naomi Rader, Shaun Warner and Marina Anic for their incredible support!
I’ve been wondering if this fight in my head is mine alone or are people all around me, my friends, my collaborators, going through the same thing? I’ve been wondering how many of you have been walking around feeling cuckoo on the inside and staggeringly confident on the outside?
For a while now, this has been me. I often hear my parents, friends, say silly things to me like “please let us know when you’re free ‘cuz I know you have a lot going on!” and I always think to myself, “I wish I was busy doing what I really want to do, instead of being busy making the money to do it.”
The last few months in many ways have freed me from this responsibility. I had put in the time, juggled a stupid amount of projects at the same time so I can make it to New York to do the things I’ve been wanting to, but often claim I’ve been doing the whole time.
These 2 months have unearthed a side of me that I didn’t know I would find again. So much so, that I made a film about it. I would like to share this with all of you and especially with all my friends who choose to walk a similar path that refuses to indicate where it’s leading. I take solace in all your journeys & sincerely hope I’m not crazy.